Fake all the smiles and tell people you are smiling (:

What can I do ? I have to fake smile infront of my friends causr they want me to be very happy :D Thats why here I am , but no one knows inside the hurtful and depressed feeling side of me . I will never never show it infront of anybody (: . Heart is hurting so badly that wan take a KNIFE LIKE STAB THROUGH IT AND IT FEELS BETTER . Tomorrow have an outing . SHAUN ITS THE LAST OUTING ! PLEASE SMILE LIKE U NEVER SMILE BEFORE ! HAHAHA ! Okay (: please teara dont drop later and bye (:

Shaun , it is NOT WORTH , NOT WORTH AT ALL !

Shaun please tell yourself thay every night stop crying for goodness sake .. Stop crying , she wont come back to you one . She has her own life you know ? Dont disturb her . And i dont mind u getting angry at me cause i lie to you .. Its okay . I can handle myself . I tell myself not to but i cant help
It , i just keep crying and crying . Will this day ever stop ? It is so fucking
Pain pain pain . Nobody can understand . Im forever alone . A lonely boy .
Fuck love , fuck relationship FUCK EVERYTHING !

Less than one day , I'm already missing you so much .. 

Hello :B , yeah back to posting . Hmm today went out with Julian , Dorcas , Cassandra , Yong Quan . Jad

Heart Shattered broken into pieces , heart hurts alot ..

Hey people (: this night is very terrible , been crying since 10.30 up to now . Idk what's wrong with me cause my heart is terribly hurting inside deeply alot and I can't stop the pain . Mood very terrible plus emo song = worst feeling ever had . Heart pain cause of you . I just don't know why , I can't seem to stop the pain . Can't seem to let go .. Trying to smile as hard as possible okay (: tears stop flowing down please stop (: it is not worth for everything . Goodbye .

Looking at sweet couples make me jealous like shyt . Maybe I don't have the fate ?

Yeah back to this blank , dead , emotionless blog . Yeah :D . Hmm .. What to talk about like seriously ? Lol . Hmm you this girl , I will forget you just u wait :D I'm not as weak as you think , if you think that way , you're wrong so wrong . Friends are like gems precious and hard to find , but fake friends appear everywhere like owvea laying on the floor for you to silly pick them up . I wonder if I have pick up any gems yet cause Its so hard to find one . I just don't get it why do some people can get the thing that I wanted so much but I don't have the ability to have it . Sadly , life is just unfair . So unfair but I will try and somehow make it fair . I just haven't find my right onE yet . I want the old me back like seriously Maybe like primary 6 yeah ? Cause I am so peaceful and happy with my life back then .. No relationship problem , have wonderful friends , no need to think so much . Everyday have the smile on my face . But I think these are all part of growing up yeah ? Prehaps I should get used to it . Some emotionless song bring back memories and made me tears dropping slowly .. But I promise myself I will be happy when I have outing with friends . I can do it , Shaun jiayous (:

Everything will be change as long you have the power to do it (:

Hmmmm... HELLLLLOOOOO :D Well today is a super super boring day.. nothing to do just sit at home watch tv.

I'm just confuse about the situation I'm having , but you will reject me right ?

Hai didn't post for 2 days .. Yesterday was a disaster , had a high fever ._. that's so horrible like shyt . Temperature keep rising . So I went to sleep at 10pm and woke up the next day at 9.30am . Wah so shiok I tell you LOL . But having fever sucks like shyt , don't have the appetite to eat the food u love the most and the taste is so bland ._. And my head hurts me like no kidding man damn pain x.x . But I woke up at 3.30 am to shyt -.- had a stomach ache damn badly after that went to sleep shiok die (Y) anyway . I started to date someone and accept her stead request so yeah .. She seem happy .. So I should feel the same too ? I hope and I must cause I don't want hurt her feeling .. Sigh . But how am I gonna solve the fact that she is still part of my memory -.- FML .. Mind just very confuse .. But I think when we have our first outing , she will Confirm reject me cause I'm an ugly
Monster :D yay . It's okay one since I'm always reject :) looks are so that important , what to do ? This is total sucks . Hate myself why am I like that .. But it can't blame anybody yeah . So yeah good bye .