Morning (: mood feeling want to die or don't want to die . Always sucks as ever -.- . Wish I can have some pancakes in the morning . Woke up saw the huge pile of secondary 3 books infront of my face on the table .. Confirm will something bad will happen to me . But idgaf , where got mood ? And now also haven't December . I yesterday I think I saw you with your friends and you are so beautiful as always but it seems that it's just a one sided feeling . Did you still remember that time that day when I gave u the flowers on valetimes day ? Yeah .. I took all my courage to gave it to you by myself . But I guess you treat it as a shyt I guess ;sigh . It's just not fair but too bad blames on my looks, styles , studies and attitude . Who will like ? I can understand that . Well I'm hoping to search more true friends in my secondary life , as most of them are all fakes . Thats nice and sad the same time but I can't do a thing right ? Got problems come to me then solved already disappear (: . Heart bleeds x100 times more hurtful then it can be only someone can stop it but I guess it won't happen (: You got to face reality Shaun . I'm envy to some couples that they are handsome and pretty and last quite long , maybe jealous the same time . I kept thinking when we will be like them ? But I guess 癞蛤蟆想吃天二的弱。I should just give up right ? But I still feel the 0.01% that kept me going non stop ..
Lies are lies whether they are big or small . Signing off,
Shaun L .