Today was such a unexpected and fun outing <:

Back to posting , hmm today went out with Dorcas and Julian again . Hmm feel like an extra again . Well it's okay (: just close one eye . But seem like a loner .. Well it hurts so much . Now having Headache and very tired , but don't want to sleep . Hosehbo? I want have is fever leh not headache :( .. And I also dk like her anot.. Pssh so confusing . Well I think she doesn't like me le when we go outing yeah ? (: okay headache hurts me like shyt . Thank you :D . Hmm I think nothing le bah , gonna sleep soon . Tomorrow is the 1st December . Please be good to me :( sigh .. But it won't happen . Anyway Goodnights :D

This is very Painful and hurting me so much 

Hmm yesterday didn't post cause too lazy . Hmm going to end of November already and it's Decemer . Time flies very fast . People change alot too . Well watching MAMA MNET star award show and it was so thrilling and exciting , at the same time very moody :/ . Sigh . Especially when it came to night time . Mood turn bad . I just can't seem to forget u walao . When to Facebook saw your post then ._. sigh . So many problems have been attacking me and hoping for a solution to all . K thanks bye.

Back to posting yeah . Hmm everyday gets More and more pissed off . Hmm as expected . Parents cared about my studies only and only know how to shout at me . At night jitao piss off damn piss like fucked -.- . But I did something trilling . Shiok die so shuang the pain . Haha . Hmm haix .. I want to have fever and headache please :( . It's so good to have a gf or bf that spent with u .. Haix jealous die ): so painful . But I'm trying to hold back my tears ! Not that weak ! Well .. Yeah that's all bye ..

Haish .. Such a painful day today .. Went to Bugis Street with my mother in the afternoon to search for my IPhone Charger .. Cause I will be needing it ? Went to eat PastaMania at Bugis Junction there and the good varieties there were like too little . Pssh . Order Pizza and garlic bread and we sawfishes our stomach . Went back home , I thought I saw her but it's not her -.- why always I thought I see her but it's just mu imagination . FML . Pssh . Anyway we can't be together , oh wait I think we aren't friends I think . Stranger to be exact . Didn't even contact her le . I'm trying to forget but it's just too difficult . Faggot sua take a knife and stab through the heart better so it's not that painful le Z. Why I never get fever headache or whatever shit . Fever burn until my mind crazy . Anyway goodbye .

Back to Posting (: . Well 11:11 just pass just a few minutes ago , and I wish my son Julian to recover soon -.- that guy ah must force then can sleep . I'm NAGGY cause I care for you okay . I hope you don't mind about it . Pssh . Should nOt have been too NAGGY about it but yeah . Hope you recover soon ASAP and feel strong as ever yeah . Gosh first time care for a person so much like crazy ._. . Anyway morning jiu get pissed off by dad -'- as usual hatedieyou a lot . Kns -.- . I'm feeling that exhausted like fk -.- . I wonder got people care so much about me ANOT . I will feel so happy . Went to Tampines Mall to shop shop and buy my school shoes -.- . Just nice it fits very perfectly . Hmm I also don't know what to talk about zzz . Haix .. Why everyday like that ? Please cheer up . There will be up and down when u two together .. Don't just small things jiu angry or no mood .. Ah dk what to say lazy blog bye bye -.-

Looking back all the posts I post when I was Secondary 1 , I was shocked that I actually wrote so many childish and ridiculous posts . This is stupid -.- . Make a fool out of myself . Hmm I changed damn a lot and more mature I guess . Secondary 1 was such a cheering and happy life for me but this year sucks like shyt yeah . People do change yeah so don't be too shocking . I think I would want to go back to my old me but that is impossible yeah . Nvm it's okay .

It's Thursday today and it really fucking sucks today (: . Firstly is of course my dad as usual . Never fail to make me piss one day . Must give me attitude everyday and make me feel sucks yeah (: thanks dad you did a really good job of helping me . I appreciated alot (: . Well apparently why do I bother to help people business when they don't care about yours ? It's like they appreciated your help and then poof happy walk away (: . Hmm that's really good of you . Hmm tomorrow early morning going swimming as usual , every Friday yeah ? I hope I get drowned into the deepest pool and died on the spot yeah? That will be so awesome . I live also don't know for no reason , always KANNA attitude by others and need to see their black and fuck up attitude (: . I should go bang wall die sua then everything will be fine . Hmm.. You ask me to do that do that as your guai dog like cook rice , help u take things, help u call , help u cook that , help u wash that , help u hang clothes wash clothes . I preserve yeah (: I will and I can . I didn't complain a thing . Cause I respect u . You said you see my face angry , hmm like I see your du LAN face happy like that ? Pls lah kettle calling the pot black ? I eat dinner slowly also u must kpkb . I eat slow is my own fucking problem , what rights do you have to control me ? Stay at home also you kpkb , outside with my friends also kpkb . Are you making my life miserably ? Nvm I ren I ren okay (: . I can do it , Shaun you can . You no need to depend on your friends to help u cause they can't do a thing only me can . Everyday's life getting more and more peaceful yeah ? I'm starting to hate this family alot cause nobody care for a second about me . Well just keep smiling to hide the pain inside my heart . Wonder what it is feel like when u end your life ? Hmm.. I think that's all yeah ? I don't know what to do just to keep smiling~
Smile is a strongest expression that allows you to hide your mood deep inside your heart .